At that halting moment
When you deeply kissed me
And butterflies fluttered through my veins
I didn’t love you.
While watching summer sunsets
And eating half-melted creamsicles
You held my hand with sweet sticky fingers.
Still, I didn’t love you.
When we’d lay by the pool
As the rays of sun sank deep into our pores,
You threw me in the water and brushed
your ice-cubed lips against mine.
But still, I didn’t love you.
As we sat at dinner and our families conversed,
You spoke secrets across the table with your eyes,
And I understood every word.
Know, that I didn’t love you.
When we were swamped with work
And our lives were written into planners
You scheduled yourself into my books,
And left me presents to find.
No, I didn’t love you.
When I saw you playing pool,
Your eyes focused on that 8 ball,
I watched as she slinked up beside you
And kissed you.
That look of admiration, between you two
Pushed me forward as I pushed past her and whispered
I never loved you.